The Comfort Zone

As most of you know... I've become accustomed to not being comfortable in any circumstance in my life the past few years. As I prepare this week to move next weekend it's encouraged me to think about being comfortable. While I'll admit soem times I am not so happy with the Lord regarding the things He's brought my way - I am thankful for always feeling like I'm out of my comfort zone. I don't know what that is exactly. The women in my bible study have named me the "female Job" - and it was great to hear that. it made me happy because I know the end of the story! I know that while the Lord took away so much from Job, He gave Job Himself. Job knew what it was like to truly communicate with God. He heard the voice of God. Job didn't leave the Lord when he thought that God had left him.
I know what its like to have things, dreams, people, and plans taken away from you. But praise God, I know what it means to know that He has not abandoned me. To know that God is here today just as much as He was with Job. He may communicate differently at times, but He has not left. What a struggle its been these past few months. The things that I put confidence in were taken away.... job, $, a place to live..... but I want to tell you that I am thankful for it. God has revealed what it means to rely on His provisions. Many of you who are reading this have been instrumental in that! Thank you mucho! Thank you for allowing Christ to use you in my life. I have been learning that it's ok to ask for help. My pride of being the one who sucks it up and does what I have to in order to make it has been taken. I have been broken. I like being broken. It's a good place to be. I am so much more sensitive and thankful for what I DO have. I have the Creator of the world on my side, preparing my future for me that I have no idea what it will be. It's an honor to serve a God of surprise! I love surprises (for the most part - other then the time that my dress completely ripped down the front while I was a brides maid in my friends wedding - that was NOT good. But, thank God for Duck Tape!) - I hope to learn more in the days and months to come about what it means to rely solely on Christ. To gain confidence in what He desires for my life and that my heart will desire what His plan is for my life this side of the presence of Him.

The ultimate goal is not just to know God, but God Himself.

peace out -
Jenn <><